This evening after school, I was pounded on the head by a sledgehammer. Baka... why must I do stupid things to make people angry! Went home with dejection. At home, I decided to take out all that "Bakaness" and dejection on jogging.

The moment I reach the 176 bus stop, no warm-up done, I ran. Just run only... With my favourite music blasting in my ears... I ran the normal route. By the time I hit the turning point about 4km away, my left abdomen developed a stitch and a sudden surge of pain fills that region. I mentally tell myself, "Its just pain you idiot! It shows you are still alive... You cannot stop! If you stop you will fail... you will be weak!" Everytime the pain hits me, I would take out my handphone and look its background picture... its someone special to me... I will never fail her... my mind became impervious to further demoralization as I raced to complete the entire 7 kilometres... Without her, I cannot do it... Guess I...haha...

When I reached home and took off my singlet, I got the shock of my life! The sunburn on my back developed into a massive spawning bed of water bubbles! (well, the water is sweat actually) Oh My God! Its the most grotesque thing I have seen on myself! It feels like leather to the touch. When I press it, it burst *POP!* yuuucks~! I got Ah Ju to do the dirty job for me for pressing all the sweat out!

Watashi Baka San~

Die, I copied homework today haha! Copied Akbar's exercise on Inverse Matrixes! Just didn't have the mood to finish up everything...the funny and sad thing is that today, I wasn't myself... so screwed up. Maybe constant discouragements from Akbar and See Kiang; discouragements from eating KFC (Kentucky Friend Cruelty). Maybe is the abstainance to smoke today... Maybe its that someone special in life giving me a stab through the heart. I couldn't take it... I transfered all the anger on a stack of nice chairs in the Computer Club. I feel real bad... That was the first time I vented my anger infront of my friends... Sorry to Akbar and See Kiang... I feel so baka... like I always call Ting Ting hahaha...

Later in the evening, JQ invited me to watch the SMIT TalentTime Competition. No time to go online MSN. JQ was the guest performer. The entire show was not bad. And the eventual winners were a dance outfit that called themselves "Ho-Seh-Bo?!"

Sentosa! 25/11/06

Below: The infamous PCB(Pon Class Bradders). Staring at what huh?

Below: Fancy fistworks from fiesty fighters!

Below: JQ and Me...we cannot live without it...

Below: Its a bright and hot sunny afternoon...

Below: A pretty lady helps us to take a shot! Lucky not the FUGLY one...

What a day at Sentosa! After the exams, a hot sunny day at the beach is a good way to relax! People who were there incude Cheng Earn, Akbar, Zhi Kang, Wen Chuan, Xiao Jian, JiaQing and me of course! We played the regular stuffs such as volleyball, soccer. But did other stupid things like burying JQ under a huge mold of sand and adding p**** and a pair of b***s! Played water fight, etc... Just too many to describe, real fun. One regret was not putting on sun block. Now, my whole body is red and it hurts! Oww... But overall, one word to describe it. Whee~!

My alter ego... still wanna be friends?

I got this post somewhere out there.... I don't know where... here goes...

I know today is you birthday, but I pretend not to know. I don't want to go home and see you and get forced to give you the present and wish you a happy birthday like a pathetic puppet.

Do you seem to care about me? I don't think so. When I step through the door and call you, you don't even give me a glance to acknowledge my presence. When I call you when I eat, you just simply grunt. You just have a lack of interest in me, while putting on a fake mask when u are in front of others. You seemed to have grown a belly lately.. is it because everytime the phone rings and you are too lazy to pick it up? Instead you leave it to me to get it? Thanks... there you have won yourself a belly, and I have lost mine.

Addiction, I have know them for so long, fair, you smoke I also smoke, you drink I also drink. If I had not picked up those habits I would have rubbed those in too. Your addictions have deprived us a lot. Gambling, all you do is spend you paycheck to feed your gambling addiction, as if you are deprived of it and need constant feeding to make you feel satisfied, feel high. You feel high losing hundreds, maybe thousands every night? Perhaps you still remember you burnt your fingers once, erm "twice?", on the stock market. And, you need to borrow money badly from others? What a loss of face...

Your constant feedings makes us suffer. You give us the bare minimum while you enjoy all the luxuries like some spoilt noble. You made us for what we are today. With deprivation, rage and hatred for the pampered emerged...

Did I mention Deprivation? Definitely not happening to you. Us.. Look at all the things in the space we reside in. Scavanged second-hand rejects. So typical of you, unwilling to spend on things that are essential, things that imrove the well-being of everyone. I know your carpenter and painting skills are good but showing off too much is not good too...
Protection? Sounds very doubtful. I will never forget the black box (a marvellous work of art). Does that thing really consume so much energy like the amount of current cosumed at "Babyface". If that is your rational, then screw you. You are just afraid we mess the whole floor right? *grins*... oh what a crooked thought...

You chained her home. Just to do all the dirty work. She is tired, she is overworked, she is underpayed, she is under-loved, she is over-abused. Yet, she refuses to blow. She seems to be bent to your will. You have deprived her of a mind of her own. I pity her for her life. I would gladly not exist in this world in order for her to lead a much better life. You made her protect us like some sacred custodian. We are not protected, we are caged. In this cage,I grow up with my brother. The name of my little "brother" is hatred. He is tiny amongst others but large when focused at you.... *sigh* I really wanna release that chain. But sometimes u really release it to allow me to suffer...

If you want to regret and attempt to change things .Don't bother, I am happy with life this way with my "brother". I have already forsaken all thoughts of forgiveness... Yes, this is so blasphemous. I don't mind burning in hell. I would love to meet the devil ...

Below: Maggie Mee! Yeah! And to think that I always tell someone not to eat so much MSG!

Phew... Managed to submit my GEMS personal portfolio. Managed to crap my way through. I submitted my work at the tutors office and I had thought that was the end of it. I was so wrong... She asked me if I had submitted the E-learning assignment. I did not. So here I am 2.30am in the morning... I managed to finish my E-learning assignment just only... I could have done it earlier all thanks to laziness. However, I managed to cure it by helping myself to nightsnack! Maggie Mee with egg and cabbage! With energy recharged, I powered and crapped my way through the assignment. Everything seems to go so well so far this week. Got 87 for PEEE, full marks for Maths, 68 for structured programming (not so good news afterall...) Can't wait for this Saturday as the PCB (Pon Class Bradders) are going Sentosa!

Just woke up only... dishevelled hair, carry my laptop to the living room to tap connection. Yesterday I had to go to my 3 Gu Gong's (Ah Mah's 3rd brother) funeral. We were at Bukit Panjang at about 6. Then I, Ah A, Ah Ju, Sam and Ray went to Bukit Panjang Plaza for dinner before the ritual commence. After dinner we head back to the wake. It was long... all the way till 11pm. After that the 5 of us plus Grace went to Clementi KTV! Saw Jimmy for the 1st time in ages. Sad, if he was working on Thursday, maybe we would have Burbon in our drinks! We sang till 3am. On the way home, we decided to meet up tomorrow morning for DoTA at Ginza. But now... only I am the one awake and the other 4 are still sleeping. And I remembered its JiaYi's 17th birthday tomorrow. But JQ, CE and I have not moved our lazy asses out of the house! Well, reality is that JQ is busy today and CE is in Sentosa. And, I don't want to go shopping alone. It looks retarded. Also, tomorrow is the submission date for the GEMs portfolio. And heck I haven’t even started. If I had not lost my materials at Vivo City...

Mid-Semester Test 2 Over!

Finally MST2 ended! PEEE=die, DE=double killed, Maths=triple killed and finally SPROG=holy shit! Ready to be meat-hooked and suffer sanity’s eclipse from my parents haha! Yesterday, at the exam venue, I was practically stunned at the last parts of the SPROG paper. After I saw a few of the guys left the exam venue in "happy dismay", I feel its time that I stop stressing my brain and follow the guys! Later in the afternoon, JiaQing, Cheng Earn and me decided to head down to the Clementi K-Box to give it all out! Hell shit, those guys really give it all out with their chinese rap and sorts. I would really love to sing some of the English songs. However, the MTVs look like some B-Grade flick shit. There was one incident where this young female KTV employee served us our titbits. JQ got emotional and focused all his vocals, gestures and emotion at her! We were all LMAO'ed when the young lady said that his singing sucks! Another incident was when JQ tried my paper-rolled cigarettes, using a piece of receipt as the paper instead of the cigarette papers… *puff*… tears well up and cough like hell! Remember, insist on the original, do not use receipt paper for hand-rolled cigarettes! Please guys, don’t push me to quit smoking, I am trying… I think… *grins!*

Project Dendrobium: Phase 2 (6/11/06)

Below: The internal structure for of the arms for the massive claws...

Below: RX-78 G3 Gundam poses with the partially completed Orchis..

Below: What's done up till the second session..

For Stage 2 on last monday, I finally managed to rectify the joint problem in Stage 1. And I made up more of the hull of Orchis, as shown in the picture. 2 more pieces of metal plates are required to reinforce the structure. Screws are required too! Loads of screws!! Also, I began construction of the thrusters... So far so good.

Yesterday, ZhenXi and her boyfriend Shane dropped by my house. Man! I found out that Shane is quite a Gundam freak. We had much to talk about regarding Gundam. So much so to the extent that ZhenXi tried to get Shane to accompany her home, but to no avail! Shane asked that I help him source for a MG GP02-A kit. It seems that he can't find it anywhere in Singapore or back at KaoXiong. Is it really that hard to find it?

Project Dendrobium: Phase 1 (4/11/06)

Below: The magnitude of the packaging...

Below: The magnitude of work that I have to undertake!

Below: End of Day 1... Stamen is wow'ed at dendrobiums height!
Below: Another angled shot. See the awestruck expression of stamen?

After 5 freaking years being left on the shelf, Project Dendrobium went underway! I believe it to feels that after sitting on my desk for ages, it feels its time that it assembles itself. But I am not going to let it have its way! Haha! I started off, by taking all the plastic mesh out of its packaging and laying it all over the floor. After all that is done, a feeling of lazyness washed over me. "Do I really have to do this???" Without thinking, its assembly time. I started with both the skeletal piston for the large beam sabers. This excludes the armour plating for it; just the skeletal internals. Then, I proceeded to make the stand, a small portion of the Dendrobium's bottom hull and the forward-central part in which both large weapon containers would be later attached. One of the problems encountered is the fixing of the skeletal piston arms. Apperently one of the parts to guide the pistons refuse to join together perfectly (So much for flawless Bandai model kits...) I managed to it by slicing off a portion of a 'male' part to attach to a 'female' part. As a result one of the arms were done up while the other is still pending modification. The other arm is attached to hard and I would have to fix it another day.